A little background on myself. 32, single male, airline pilot, got out of a 5 year relationship earlier this year. June 20, I ran into a random girl in the airport. I never approach people in the airport when I'm working. But I noticed she was charging her phone, and I engaged in conversation with her. She was 28, from Ohio. I live in Chicago, but am from Detroit. We talked, and I said goodbye. Before I boarded a plane to Detroit to see my family, I turned around and gave her my #. I got a text from her when I landed. We've texted almost daily since then, talk every other night. The day after I met her, I called her and asked if she wanted to do dinner. She was kind of shocked, but agreed and I flew down, had dinner, stayed in a hotel, and went home the next day. Since then, I've been down to her place 2 other times. She is a very independent woman. She has told me she has her walls up, and that she was married for 2 years, and found out her husband at the time was having a long going affair with another woman. She now lives alone, and seems to be very cautious with proceeding forward. It's been a month since I met her. In that time, like I mentioned, I've gone down there 3 times, sent her flowers to her work, and have told her I have feelings for her, and want to know where this is going. I get provocative pictures from time to time from her which I have no problem with. Even simple pictures like her laying in bed saying "Your favorite place." We have not done the deed, only messed around. But sometimes I feel like I am getting contradicting messages from her.
Her email response was " I just don't like to say anything or share anything until I'm 100% sure about it because I'm afraid if I do say yeah I want it to be us and things like that then it doesn't work out or feelings change you feel like I was misleading or hurtful or I don't know something like that. I also know that you need some guidance to on where things are going...this is the best that I can do at the moment:I like you, I like spending time with you, I don't ever spend time with someone (more than one date) if I don't see potential for more...more being what I'm sure you are asking. I want the same things that most people want..someone to share their life with etc. I am just not 100% on my feelings yet so I just didn't want to say something or do something that might make you think one way if I wasn't behind it 100%. I don't know if this makes sense at all and we can talk later about it. I just haven't loved or cared about anyone in years and maybe I'm not real sure how to anymore but it just takes me a little longer to get there. "
It just seems like I am putting all this verbal, emotional, and physical effort in, but not really seeing it back. Last week I told her when I was off this week, and she told me tomorrow (Thursday) would be the best day to come down for a dinner date. I told her "you let me know!" I am thinking if I don't hear anything by tomorrow morning, when I finish work, I will just go home. NO reason to bring it up or pressure anymore to see her, I put my cards on the table.
Am I going down a dead end road here? Any input would be appreciated.