My ex who I was very much in love with for a long time had a long distance bf while we were dating which I didn't know about for 8 months, as i've posted on here quite a few times. For 2 years I stuck around and listened to her lies and bs about how i'm really the one she wants to be with and that as soon as he breaks up with her we can be together... Earlier this summer he actually did break up with her and I was there for her, thinking that finally I had a legitimate chance. She then proceeded to blame me for the breakup as well as to say that we will always be friends and nothing more. That hurt meet so deeply and I felt like my past 2 years had been a complete waste. I told her that I didn't want to speak with her anymore and that I don't want her friendship.
I was really sad, but as a recent college graduate I decided I was gonna travel around and have a mini-vacation to take my mind away from things. My travels took me to Atlanta where I met up with a former friend, long story short after a few weeks we ended up deciding to date and make it official. Ironically, on the EXACT same day that we got together, my ex contacts me after previously not speaking to me for the past 2 months. She tells me that she's sorry for not knowing what she wanted before, how she's sorry for the way she treated me, how she knows that i'm the one she wants, exclusively, how she was stupid before and that she loves me dearly and wants me back... Unbelievable. So I didn't think it would cause such an emotional response from me but it really did. I lashed out at her, but mainly because my heart felt so torn and upset that after her bf broke up with her she told me that if i'm around it will never be more than friendship and not to ever expect anything more out of her. All that time I had been around for two years asking, begging for her love, begging for her to be with me and only me, and she refused.. And now when I finally start feeling happy and forgetting about her, as well as moving forward with someone else, she happens to come right back and say all the things I always wanted to hear.
What in the world is wrong with me? I'm with someone I truly love, someone who makes me so happy, someone who's down for me and only me, someone who is mature, responsible and knows exactly what she wants, and yet the things my ex has said to me are making me think twice about things? What in the world am I supposed to do?