So, I have been with my Fiance now for three years, we have a handsome and perfect 1 year old son. I thought everything was going well but last december things started to seem different between my guy and I. He kept hiding his i-phone, he had new strange apps like karma sutra and positions, and he didnt answer his phone at work. I thought I was just being paranoid...I ignored all the signs. Then just last week I found some e-mails on his phone...they are in spanish from a girl he works with who is much much older. I dont speak spanish but i got enough out of the google english spanish translator that i realize hes been having some kind of relationship/affair with this woman. I confronted him with and he admitted that they kissed, but it never went further. Did I mention that she calls him all the time and he never answers his phone in front of me! I'm lost...I love him to death...but I cant trust him anymore. He apologized, begged me to forgive him and said he loves me with all his heart. Im trying to trust him again, but I dont know if im just being weak and stupid or if I should gather my strength and bolt as soon as I can. In my gut I feel as though he lied and its still going on and that they had a "real" affair, but I come from a troubled childhood where adultery and heartbreak were a daily problem between my parents who divorced and remarried eachother several times, I dont know if this could be affecting my judgement. I will admit I have always been predispositioned to believe that all men are cheaters. Im lost, confused, heartbroken and paranoid, someone please help me find my way.