I am a 36 year old ex model who has just come out of a very lonely marriage...I moved to Canada and felt extremely lonely..I met a young guy (16 years my junior) on a dating site..We started a relationship about six months ago..He lives about two hours away from me and used to come every weekend to book into a hotel to see me. Our relationship was like a fairy tale! We seemed totaly inlove and told each other so every time we saw each other..When it was time to part on a Sunday we would both be in tears!
About three months ago it was the same..We cried and he left..two days later he left me a message on facebook to tell me he only wanted to be friends! I was totaly devistated and I cried for days! He apologized! I missed him terribly..He used to tell me all the time how beautiful I am..he dined me..sent me the most beautiful love letters but they stopped after we broke up...
We kept contact but often we fought badly! I would sit and cry on skype while he stared at me!...He was still very jealous and every now and then questioned if I had met anybody else..Our relationship was tense..one minute it seemed we were together and the next he would drop the bomb and say he loves me only as a friend..but got very angry when he questioned who a new guy was I became friends with on Facebook..It seemed to be an emotional rollercoster..he wanted me but did not...
About one months ago he woke me up at 2am to go on skype..he told me he had been seeing a girl for a few weeks and he was spending the weekend with her and he did not want me to text!..I was shocked!..I felt phsically ill because I love him.. One week after that he told me he misses me and not with her anymore..We kept contact..mostly on skype.. He said He would come and see me again when he had the money..This whole week he has been absolutely fantastic! Although we are not officially together he calls me angel..tells me he loves me (he is not one who often says that) and begs me to move closer to him when my lease expires in August..What worries me is while we are on skype and his phone rings he turns off the camera! I question him but he jokes and says "its only my girlfriend..JOKING!"..I also notice he texts a lot while we are sitting on skype (sometimes for hours)..He sometimes goes out and then his phone is off for hours!..
I have young children and if I move to his town I am worried he has somebody and then I am making a big mistake! I tried the NO CONTACT rule about one and a half weeks ago but was not able to go through with it..he was calling me frantically... Will the NO CONTACT rule make him think if I do try it again
He has been very attached to me this past two week... wanting to see me on skype more..telling me he is inlove with me..also displaying a lot of jealousy..When he saw me on msn he accused me of chatting with another man and then when he saw me on skype (I was talking to my family), he accused me again..When I told him it was over he said "no!"..I deleted him off facebook AGAIN... He had a tantrum about that and demanded I add him "add me back Now!"..We had a very big fight yesterday..he called me an "old hag"..also said that he does not need an old woman who is trying to be like a teenager.. we made up again when he called me and he told me he did not mean what he said..
He is saying he loves me more often but I has still not made the effort to come and see me. He makes an excuse that he lives two hours away and does not have bus and hotel money..he does however say all the time that he will come as soon as he can...
I am trying to trust him but I still think he sees somebody and can't get away..Sometimes he turns his phone off for hours (he tells me he was napping)..he also still turns his sound of skype when his phone rings..What do you think... Am I fighting a losing battle?
I am confused and depressed because I love this guy!