Well, the topic is pretty self-explanatory in the title, so I don't think I need to delve any further into that. But I will give some back story on the situation itself. Please bear with me. It may be long, so I give you my apologies in advance.
So anyway, there's this girl at work who I am absolutely crazy about. And let me tell you... when I say crazy, I mean absolutely crazy. I haven't felt this giggly or giddy about a girl since about ten years ago when I was in high school. She's everything I could ask for. Smart, funny, sexy, dark hair. The total package of what I always look for in a girl. I think her and I would be the perfect match. Two of our co-workers, including one the first day this girl and I worked together, have said that her and I would make a cute couple.
But here's the catch... she has a boyfriend. A boyfriend who is an unemployed (for a year now), Oxycontin popping, freeloader who holds her back from reaching her true potential.
Her and I flirt non-stop. Everyone at work can see it and people occasionally mention something about us in passing. She even told me at one point, if she was single she'd definitely date me. We text on occasion and we want to hang out, but never do. Generally she feels like her boyfriend is going to catch wind of it and she chickens out.
But about a week and a half ago, she told me that her folks were gone for the weekend (she lives at home) and that she wanted me to come over so we could "fool around" if you get what I mean. She told me that on a Friday and I was going to roll over Sunday after my shift at work. We kept texting a few naughty things back and forth during the weekend, so come Sunday when I saw her at work, I was raring for it to be the end of my shift.
About two hours before I was ready to go, I get text telling me that she can't go through with it, she felt guilty, he was going to stop over. The usual excuses.
Needless to say, I was less then thrilled (see: mad). I understand her reasoning, but it doesn't mean I wasn't upset. She called me and in my anger, I really couldn't be too eloquent to tell her WHY I was upset. Yes, I was upset because I wasn't going to have sex, but that wasn't the man reason. I was mainly upset because I really wanted to spend some time with her. I wasn't going into this to have a quick f**k and then bounce out. I wanted to have a few beers, watch a movie, cuddle up on the couch and get to know her. If we didn't get past the making out stage, I wouldn't have been upset at all.
So anyway, I'll get to the point. Should I tell her how I feel, even though she has a boyfriend? I want to tell her pretty much everything I've said here. How I haven't felt this giddy over someone since high school or how I think about her constantly. I want to tell her about the paragraph above this. I just kinda want to get it all out there. I've never done anything like this, so I don't know what to think.
I've drawn a few positives from it. There must be some attraction to me in there, what with the "dating" comment she told me and wanting to sleep with me before backing out on it. The ideal situation is that I tell her all this and I get that kiss from her that I so desperately want and she tells me she wants to be with me too. Reality tells me I'm gonna get the "I really like you but..." spiel. However, I have that nagging thought in the back of my mind that she'll either laugh in my face or be completely creeped out. I'm starting a new job next week, so things can't be awkward at work which is also a plus.
I don't know what to think. What would you do if you were in my situation? I need all the help I can get here.
Thanks for listening to me ramble.