I miss her so much though. Stupid 180 pound cow thinks she's too freaking good for me. It's riidiculous. I could have any of a dozen girls at my place of emplyoment...I picked up a 24 year old at the bar tonight. like...no problems at all. All with much better mental health than this retarded woman. I hate her. she never deserved me in the first place. she certainly doesn''t desreve me now.
I just want her back. so i could freaking break her heart. i want her to be miserable for the rest of her life. then maybe i'll be happy. i don't give a hootenany about depression or whatever.either take me back...or just go away and never come back;.
I'm gonna do no contact for as long as i can. I texted her tonight, nbut starting form tmrw morning I won't be. She needs to figure her own crap out before anything else can move forward