I met him through mutual friends. I was there one day briefly and he told them I was "smokin hot" and asked for my #. He called me a couple of days later and asked me to dinner. We talked on the phone like we had known each other forever and the date was awesome. We really connected, and I know he felt the same way. We were both overwhelmed with physical attraction and had sex early in the relationship, and a lot of it. It was mind blowing sex. We couldn't get enough of each other. The connection was intense, deep, and strong. Then I started to feel him drifting away. I convinced myself I was being paranoid and I just hadn't seen him much because his brother was in town, but deep down I knew something was up. He finally confessed that his ex had called and wanted to get back together and that he couldn't live with himself if he didn't try to make it work with her. I was devastated (although not 'in love' yet, i felt it could be love if we had more time). I usually never pursue anyone. My theory is that I don't want to be with anyone that doesn't want to be with me, but for some reason, I can't live with myself if I don't try to get him back. But i am a very passionate person and I did not take the news well. I was hurt and I wanted him to hurt too so I did and said awful awful things. I was drunk and don't remember most of it, but text messages were a painful proof. I text to apologize, told him thats not who i am, and he would never hear from me again. But I just can't seem to let this go. So i text once more and said " i feel sick about the things i said and want to talk to you once more to apologize/explain, I need to know I did the right thing. Please give me this'. that was just a minute ago and i know he goes to bed early. I fear he will never respond or even hear me out. I think if i can get him to meet me, the physical tension will overwhelm him and I may have a chance of sneaking back in. But he says he's in love with her and she is delusional and a hypocrit, my exact opposite, but he swears she a good person, but thats a whole different story. Do I even have a chance after my bad behavior? what should my plan of action be? why can I not let this one go? help?