Hello all! I have been dating my boyfriend for two years. We currently live together. We have definitely had our ups and downs as I've dealt with depression issues and he had not seriously dated anyone for 7 years before me. I was cheated on previously in my past relationship and it took a toll on me. Recently, I have been feeling sick and having rage issues that seemed to come from nowhere. I blamed myself and constantly beat myself up thinking that I should be better than to succumb to emotional misery. Ive done counseling and meds. I really have tried and I know it hasn't been easy. However, I fell for my insecurities and checked my significant others facebook. To my suprise, the things I feared were right in front of me. He has been communicating with a female from high school and having in depth sexual conversations and has been asking for her to spend him dirty pictures to his email. She is also currently married and has at least two children. I am unaware if her husband knows about these conversations. Even worse, he was discussing a move we have been considering in which he wants me to join him, or so he's said. Too bad she knows more about it then I do. It is very rare that I talk about my physical attractiveness, as self esteem issues often riddle the depressed, but I am a pretty attractive chick. Comparatively, I blow this chick out of the water. I have no children/baby daddys, am in good shape, and consider myself to be the "closet freak." I make friends easily and am faithful to the ones I love. But it just isn't enough. He's communicated with her regularly for a little over a month now and the conversations continue to get increasingly in depth. It broke my heart. Also, he's been communicating with his ex. I had some real issues with this check as she would text him things like, "Your dream is coming true, I'm getting a divorce." But he has been unwilling to stop communication with her and as long as its friendly I don't mind. However, in a facebook message, he brought up to her that "I would have to make changes to keep him," and that he found weddings to be a complete waste of time and money and that he would never marry me. Once again, my heart broke. I understand that he is emotionally slow, but I see this as a total lack of respect for me. And I just can't stand for that. However, if I bring the issue up to him, it will be my fault because I didn't trust him. At this point, I think I have a right not to trust him. I just don't know what to do. He hasn't physically cheated, but emotionally cheating is just as bad to me. I love this man with all my heart and thought he would never hurt me. Guess I expect too much from people. If you have any advice for me, I'd love to hear it.