Hi all!

I met this girl via friends on MSN about 2 years ago. Today we are very close friends. She spoke to me many a evening when I was going through a breakup scenario and she was much needed support. Having been a large scale introvert most my life, only getting out of that phase in 2008, I didnt have many friends to confide in during that situation.

As time progressed our mutual friendships took interesting twists and we become more connected because of it. We ended up doing more and more things just the two of us without our mutual friends. Then and still to a lesser degree I have been a very reserved individual so never per say made any move on her... I hardly make moves on anyone. {working on that }

This girl is rather physical of nature with very select and few individuals, however as I think right now I am the only one that comes to mind that fits the description here and now. Physical of nature is described by definition as enjoys locking in when walking, cuddle up when cold, resting on shoulder - hand on my chest, wanting to be held arm over shoulder or around waist during a movie or series etc. Very girlfriendy stuff is a short way of defining it. Potentially irrelevant fact I just realised is the few people that she has been this close with are people she had been revealed to have liked to some degree.

Everyone perceives us as being together at first simply with the way we behave. I believe from an external point of view we do playfully flirt with each other. Innocently. Even though we act the way we do I have many of the times mentioned to her and a few people in detail of whom I was interested in at the time and she has on occasion done the same in return where she was interested in a certain person. so in the latter regard it functions as a normal friendship.

The last time I met someone else I had some interest in, unfortunately not a local cape town girl so I didn't really bother, I got to know her a little and she increased her physical behaviour ten fold while this girl was around. Other friends of mine that don't know her very well commented on what she was doing and said she was giving this girl "evil eyes". My explanation could simply be she doesn't want her high friendship status threatened by any other girl - obviously they believe otherwise.

For the first time though in this entire time I am seeing her a little differently and more than friends - its slightly confusing. Obviously many questions come up now such as what happens if she knows I may be viewing her differently, do I even bother or just continue until I meet someone else that catches my eye to avoid stress on the friendship. This person is extremely important to me and I really do not want to lose her. Fun times