Hi all,
Your opinion very appreciated:
First of all, I would like to make it clear - I am not a "bad" or mean person. I consider myself as a decent man. But for some reason I want some revenge to my x-gf . I want her to be really sorry about
(1) the fact that she dumped me (it wasn't even a "dump", it was treating me like a piece of sh*t for no reason whatsoever)
(2) the way she did it. In short - she left for a vacation to her country (with my encouragement) 6 week later came back pregnant from her X. We talked over phone once, where she said she is sorry (of course), she don't understand how it happened, she is considering an abortion - what do I think bout it, will I take her back, blah blah, blah... After that she tried to call me several times - I just blocked her number, cause I was sick of her empty words. I wanted her to come and talk to my face and not hide behind the phone if she really serious an want to try to fix something. Amn't I right ?
Anyway, we already 22 days complete NC (I have no idea about her life, she doesn't know about mine). I do believe that eventually she will show up.
To be frank, may be few weeks ago I would take her back and try to fix thing. Currently, after reading many threads here, I am realizing, this relationship was "doomed' from the beginning and there is no chance us to become a happily marry couple (Until death do us part)...no matter what she will do now...(and yes, we were talking about moving in together, marriage, kids, house..the usual "small talk")
I was in so much pain lately...Really, I could physically feel it. I still wasting a lot of my time and energy thinking about her... although we live really near (5-10 mins apart) I do my best to avoid her neighbourhood and not to meet her even by chance...Also I blocked her phone number. But, I do believe that eventually she will show up and ask for a second chance, I almost sure (when she wants - she knows how to find me, she did it before) and I want to be ready...I can think about two options:
1) Date her, sleep with her and then next day disappear from her life - like she did for me.
2) Date her, when it will come to sex, when we both naked - just say that I don't find her attractive any more. sorry..let's be friends (to be frank, once I considered her to be super sexy)... I can control my self (this also something she liked about me), even if she will be completely over me....
What do you think ? Is it so bad ?