Hey, first of all nice forum, my first post im going to make sure i post here more often! Heres my predicament;
So i met my girlfriend around 8 months ago, she was working as i was on a night out and i was drunk, got talking to her and her sister (they were working on a burger van for their dad coverin the main employee who was sick), and managed to get her number. I texted and rang her a few times that following week then took her out on a few dates, after a few weeks we were officially boyfriend and girlfriend, we got on great, had a laugh together, her family liked me my family liked her, the sex was good we had a good relationship. We went for 6 months without a slightest problem in the relationship, but come september i moved to thailand.
Id warned her at the start of the relationship i was going to move to thailand to train and fight thai boxing for 4 months, and i couldnt handle a long distance relationship, so it was kinda weird knowing we were going to split up when i went. The day came, we said our tearful goodbyes, split up and i set off for thailand. Heres the thing though, although "officially" we were split up, we never split up if you get me? We still messaged each other every day saying how much we loved each other, and it was ok for the first few weeks.
Then the problems started, she wanted me to spend more time talking to her than i wanted to as i was out here doing what i love, the arguments started and the cracks started appearing. Last night it came to a standstill, i told her i couldnt do this long distance thing anymore as i previously said before i came, and i wanted to properly break up. She told me id led her on saying we was going to get back together and she was heart broken. Now here comes the tricky bit.
Im not sure what im feeling, i thought there would be a massive weight off my shoulders now weve split properly and i can do my own thing, but i feel bad for hurting her, i spent most of the time out here thinking how much i wanted to be single again as the spark seemed to be lost a little bit, but now its actually happened i feel kinda numb, and not sure what i want, is this natural? This is my first girlfriend ive split with, im not too sure what im supposed to be feeling, i dont know whether its a sign i should get back with her or everyone feels like this, any advice? Thanks for reading