I am in need of desperate help. I have a girl that I have known for years, been with since January. I love her with everything I know of love. She loves me too, I know it, she says it. However, she has tried breaking up with me 3 times in the past, and last night was the fourth. She says that I am not prioritize enough and need to work on my communication skills. I have been, and think I am doing an OK job on it, maybe not perfect, but a hell of a lot better than I used to be. She may think I lie to her, but in fact I don't. I have no reason to. Why would I lie to the woman I love? Maybe I have told a few white lies in the very begining, but I definitely lived and learned from that since it was the first time she attempted to break up with me.
Lately, since I moved to my new house, I have been having problems with my cell phone where it just won't ring, and I believe she thinks that I am not answering or turning it off on purpose. Damn Sprint, they suck. Two days ago, I was busy with work at home, and I was patiently waiting for her call back. I thought my phone was froze, so I turned it off, and forgot to turn it back on. I left to go to the store, which she know about, meanwhile, she finally attempted to call back, my house and cell. I then realized it was off, and when I turned it back on, I get a text stating, "I am done, I tried calling 10 times, both numbers. Good luck trying to call me back." And I haven't talked to her since after numerous attempts. The only response from her that I have gotten is, "It would be better if you stayed out of my life. I don't want you there by me only here n there, tired and overworked. Please respect my decision."
Now I do work a full time and part time job, and recently bout a 2 flat and am in process of getting it rehabbed, I am doing the electrical work. My life is busy and hard right now, but I've told her to please just wait it out, I just need to get a little congestion out of my life. I am planning on finishing the house, renting it out, and quitting a job. However, in the meantime, I am constantly tired, and busy with things. But whatever time I have, I spend it with her. That's all I really want, but I'm stuck right now!
I haven't responded or even attempted to call since that text, and need some further advice. I am not about to give up on her because, here's the kicker, she is 3 months pregnant with my child. I am not ready to let her go over my stupid mistake of not turning my phone back on. I will not let this child grow up without a father. I do not want her to go through this whole pregnancy alone, she is scared to death of it. I have dreams of us just being a family, and growing old together.
My only resolution is this: tomorrow after work, I will go over to her house (since she won't pick up the phone), and wait for her to get there. Then I will have a casual conversation with her about us, and me. I do not want her to stress, so I won't yell, even though I have only yelled at her one time in our history. I will make the conversation about how I am going to fix myself, then pray for her to give us another shot when I am not so busy. I can be done with my house in 2-3 weeks, and my part time job takes a 3-4 week break every year, starting in 3 weeks. Does this sound feasible?
Am I really that messed up? Can I fix this? Is it anything with her hormones at this point in time? Is it that she is 7 years older than me?
Please help me, I am devastated.