I'm relapsing

[ashley89]

ever since me and my boyfriend officially broke up on Wednesday I've been surprisingly ok... I haven't really even cried, since I thought I dealt with all the tears the week before it really happened. I started seeing things in a better way and I wasn't too down about it, I've been spending time with friends, going out, and doing fun things. but last night/today I relapsed...

I went out for my birthday last night since today is my birthday, me, my friend, her boyfriend and his friend all went to a bar. it was alot of fun, but then later on I was spending time and talking to her boyfriend's friend, and I didn't like him at all, and it reminded me of how much I still love and miss my boyfriend, how different he was than other guys, how last year on my birthday we had so much fun and I wish i could be doing that... I cried myself to sleep. then today I woke up feeling down and cried some more, we haven't been talking, I miss him, he hasn't wished me a happy birthday and I don't expect him to but this sucks. I don't wanna let it ruin my birthday but it's just like, I can't stop thinking about it. today is one of the bad days and it sucks because it had to happen on my birthday!

[smackie9]

You are just grieving the loss of your relationship. You need this time to heal before even thinking of getting into someone else. The big empty hole that was left behind will eventually fill in. It's OK for you to feel the way you do, just let it all out. It will eventually dissolve away and your ex will be a distant memory. Happy Birthday btw.......do something special for yourself....go shopping for some sexy new shoes.

[ashley89]

I know I just hate this so so much. Now all of a sudden all these guys from my past are trying to talk to me again and get me to hang out, and I just want nothing to do with any of them... it makes me feel even worse. but thank you, I think I will go shopping

[sadstudent]

Belated happy birthday ashley89. I know how you feel. My birthday was shortly after my break up and I cried all day. I also cried on Christmas and new year. It's the habit of thinking "this time last year we were.....". I think it's part of the grieving process to think like that. The advice about the shopping definitely works!

[ashley89]

Belated happy birthday ashley89. I know how you feel. My birthday was shortly after my break up and I cried all day. I also cried on Christmas and new year. It's the habit of thinking "this time last year we were.....". I think it's part of the grieving process to think like that. The advice about the shopping definitely works!

my birthday is still today so it's not over yet! but I know what you mean. it's just comparing things to the past and it makes me feel bad. my friends have been awesome though, they really came through and are making me feel better. I definitely wanna go shopping with my birthday money! I'm gonna get my nails done tomorrow too