So does she like me or not?CONFUSED

[Mex]

Long story short:
I met a girl in a game in the summer.I thought this will be just a simple friend,but I feel there is a connection between us.She used to be with my everyday.I was happy that I got someone to be with.She said I mean much to her,loves me etc all kind of things which makes me feel she really does.


But something happened in september.She suddenly stopped playing the game we used to play together.And then after a few days she comes to MSN stating that she is dead...I was like...what?And surely there was something wrong with her - she was depressed but I couldn't help her because even if she came to MSN,she always replied "there is no hope" etc.


Eventually,at the end of november,I met her in the game totally randomly.I did not expect it.We both was happy to see eachother,and she gave me her new MSN adress because she no longer wanted to use the old one,because she reliazed that it was wrong to play with the others feelings and she changed herself.


I felt relieved that I got back her.Well I shouldn't have.After 3 days,she stopped talking to me,and left me there alone for the whole december.

At the early of Januar I sent her a e-mail which was not-so-nice (I couldn't help myself,my depression took control over me) to explain to me what the flux is going on.She then replies she is sorry,it shouldn't have happened etc.After replying to my e-mail she came to MSN.I asked what's her problem with me.To my surprise she said "NOTHING".She has no problem with me.She always think me about 5 times a day.I was like "whaaaat?There is surely something if you don't come to MSN for 1 month."She then says "I know,I might not be 100% psychologically right.I'm strange"We both then agreed we should start over,and learn from our mistakes.


And now the same applies as what happened in december.She came to MSN for 4 days.And now,she forgot about me again.
I hope I did the right thing - I e-mailed her today that she has depression and she needs help.
But the problem is.I am now depressed too,because I can't see her everday as I used to see her in the summer.I feel lonely.
Nowadays I get strong mood-swings.Sometimes I am confident,optimism.Sometimes I feel suicidal,asking myself why should I even live.I become aggresive and irritable.It controls my life that I have to go to psychologist.It's not enough that I got social anxiety.Nooo,my life needs to be hardened.I don't deserve this at all.

[ashley89]

this girl has some serious issues going on, it doesn't sound like you should get involved with her

[SelflessnHumble]

Both of your behavior isn't normal and no, I'm not suggesting you two are "weird" either.
Most people you meet suck. They use you like emotional/disposable tampons...
They don't really care about you, nor about your feelings. They don't truly respect who you are, much less who THEY are/aren't.

However B-laming someone else for YOUR choices to become depressed is cowardly.
Both of you need to learn how to love yourselves WITHOUT leaning on ONE person for all of your happiness.
Needy, clingy people do this all the time...Then they post here and want to die, want to kill themselves OVER one silly person who never
loved them nor appreciated them to begin with. It's ridiculous.

Does she like you? NO.
Does she like playing with you as if YOU are the game? Yes.

Let me illustrate for you how things are supposed to work:

(1) You: know yourself, have self confidence in who you are. Have hobbies, keep busy and have your own life established.
(2) Her: She too feels the same, lives her life for herself as a priority, knows what she likes AND knows that people's emotions, feelings and thoughts are precious commodities and aren't to be toyed with...

(3) You both meet, make eye contact, feel the attraction and BEGIN the normal process of getting together.
Phone numbers are exchanged, meets are arranged and you two talk, communicate either with words, or with subliminal messages (eye contact, body movements, touching)

(4) You get to know each other, what makes the other tick, you learn to build a relationship on openness, communication, respect, love and TRUST.

From here on out it's gravy provided she isn't a psychopathic vampire out to suck the life out of you, them claim she "doesn't know" why or uses excuses.

You two can't even get past the first stage here, so continuing to be in contact is poison where you exchange your own issues for one another -making it worse for both.


You need to find out who you are, and love yourself for who you are.
You need to be independent of people's expectations and learn to control your emotions.
Once you can do this without issue, THEN you look for someone who is deserving of you, not YOU deserving of them, because that is their choice to make.

Why should your mate have to deal with your baggage?
Why should YOU have to deal with theirs?