Alright, I'll admit it, I'm messed up. So, a little background until I dive into the troubles. I am 17, male, going to college, have an IQ of 171, have never kissed nor had a relationship (loving type, girlfriend, family, or otherwise). And the problem, I don't mind not being attracted to people, I really don't, but what is really messing me up is I love this one girl. She is so indescribably amazing, using mere words or expressions to describe her is inadequate, she must be experienced. The problem is, she isn't real, and I hate to say it, but its true. I dream about her constantly, and sometimes find myself talking with her, but she isn't real. This has driven me deeper and deeper into my own little world, and I don't know what to do. I'll be posting this both on the relationship forum and the psych forum, as I see this is equally fit for both. If I try to have relationships with people, they are highly predictable, easily controllable, and I wouldn't think twice about shooting them in the face, they are just that boring and worthless! But her, she is so indescribably pious.