Some of you already know me on here... some don't.. but I have had some time to self reflect.. and to be honest I dont know what it is I need to reflect on.....maybe my whole way of thinking is ****ed up.... maybe i can get some input...
I am a good looking guy, I have a great job, I am smart, funny, etc.. EVERY girlfriend I have had has given me the same reason for ending it. "Anyone would be lucky to have you." "I just dont feel the spark." "I think we are better as friends." "Its not you its me."
Personally I would rather that it WAS me. Am i doing something wrong for women to end the relationship due to lack of love or whatever you want to call it. Its rather frustrating when I watch men who beat their girlfriends/wives and they are married, or people who fight constantly sustain long term relationships... I dont understand... Is there something I need to do that I am unaware of..
Im starting to believe that it IS me...
People will say "well you just didnt find the one" well, it seems like NOBODY appreciates the way I am and that is where the issue is.... It's almost like I have to be fake in order to sustain long intimate relationships. Being kind, and caring, and going with the flow IS who I am. I am not going to change and put on a persona in order for people to feel a connection. Just because I dont give you my opinion on a meaningless topic doesnt make me I am a pushover.I am happy doing everything, or nothing and am NOT AFRAID to try new things. I can make friends REAL easy and EVERYONE I meet likes me. I do not give opinions and dont assume unless I feel it is necessary... I would love a woman who was like that. Am I the only decent person left on the face of the earth?
Some of you might say.. "well you need to be more exciting." Im not socially inept and I have fun doing EVERYTHING.. which would in turn make me extremly exciting no? Am I meeting boring people maybe? I am the only person whoISNT BORING.. what i mean is.. people who get bored are boring.
I am not trying to attack anyone.. I just dont understand why good people cant win. I make friends real easy, I just cant find someone to fall in love with me not just love me. I almost feel like I am meant to be single forever.
Oh and its not a confidence issue. However, nobody in here can tell me that when this happens constantly that I should not start self analyzing and blaming myself... something has to give.
Thanks for reading