Hi I'm new here. Im currently living wiht my ex fiance. We just took out a lease on this apartment in Sept 10. In october we broke up and I gave him the ring back. We were supposed to get married May 14, 2011. I had to cancel everything and lose all my deposits.
We tried to get back together in Jan and everything was great, but only for a month. I have done so much for him since we tried to reconcile he has done just the opposite. Since we got back together he won't allow me to be his friend on facebook. He calls me ugly yet REQUESTS beautiful women everyday to his facebook. He calls me names and comes home at 5am and he leaves and turns his phone off. He swears hes not "cheating" but the signs are all there. I just don't leave for some reason. He's completely walking all over me and I know its wrong.
Since we got together I gained 50 pounds and started dressing more like he wanted me too (no heels, or tight sexy clothes) I lost who I was. I finally lost 25 pounds in the last few months and am working my way back down. I need to regain my self confidence and maybe itll be easier for me to leave. He thinks I'm psycho bc i get upset abut things, when i wouldn't have a reason to get upset if he didn't do this to me. I cry everyday over our relationship and need to find a way out. I think I'm ready to find someone thatll love me the way I love them. But need some advice on how to actually get up and leave. I have a place to go and I dont rely on him for anything. Im just in love and heartbroken.