I'm a woman and i've recently started liking my male friend for more than a friend.
We met from a non dating forum and found we really got on...at first i thought he was gay cos he has a little bit of a feminime walk...but nothing else points out that he's gay, also he was soooo quiet when i first met him and a few times after that, like he could sit there in silence and didn't seem to mind it and even if i said something he'd just laugh or give me a short answer.
6 months on and we are getting on more than ever...he speaks more to me now, i've met his family and he's met mine and i was really happy to have a male friend.
Now...i went out friday night and went out drinking with him and a friend of mine....my female friend got really drunk and was throwing herself at him, she just sat on his lap and kept stroking his face and this is where i realised i had more feelings than just friendship for him....
Saturday was my birthday and i went for a meal with my mother then met up with him after for a few drinks in the city....later on he told me i should stay round at his house instead of rushing back home...so i agreed....
We watched tv...and i don't know how it happened but i was in his arms and we were cuddling all night until 7am just talking, also he was being playful and was tickling me....i did feel he was turned on by it and he kept putting his face close to mine like he wanted to kiss me but daren't...
Now i know for a fact that he wouldn't try anything on with me cos he is that quiet, but trouble is i daren't with him just because i don't know where i stand with him....i actually felt a bit of love for him with the way he held me...
So....i now feel my whole world has crashed over me....that "friend" of mine who threw herself at him is now off to the cinema with him tonight (btw they were friends before me and him was) he just txt me saying "off 2 cinema tonight with (her name)...trying to calm her nerves for that job interview on wednesday, ur welcome to come but might be a bit late for you on a weekday?"
Like i daren't say anything to him about my feelings...but right now i feel really jealous, and also i was planning that if i stayed at his next weekend to get drunk and just kiss him but this has changed my mind...
What is he playing at? Is this just friendship or could he want more? Why was he holding me all night like a lover would do? Then go out with my friend and not tell me until the last minute....