Friday last week my girlfriend and I had an emotional break up, she ended it. We dated for 3 years, and spent quite a bit of time together.
When she broke up with me she was balling her eyes out, it happened over the phone.
Some history prior - I started my own business about 2 years ago, and with any new start up there is a lot of work, and stress. I have poor time management and can't deal with stress very easily... this all conflicted with our relationship, I couldn't see her as much and there was always tension here and there. We would fight constantly, but always overcame it. She is a wonderful person and has always shown me love, even if i didn't reciprocate it while being stressed out.
She has always made extra effort on our relationship. Sometimes we exchange rude comments to each other but always find ways to ease the hurt and make things better. I might not have been all there the last little while being so over stressed. So she broke it off, I went to see her the next night to talk in person she agreed with little hessitation.
I went to her house, candles were lit in her bedroom, we talked.. I was still shocked from the night before so she did a lot of talking. I didn't do any begging or pleads to take me back. Things got quite intense and we started kissing a lot and it was very passionate, it felt like a dream was taking place with what was happening... I told her that I wanted to make love to her.. and we started undressing each other then someone came home.
We ended up leaving after her mother arrived and we went for coffee to talk some more... she said that she doesn't know what she wants and that what I want has become different from what she wants. She said that she loves me very much and cares about me very much and that she wants to see me and talk to me, that she can't have me disappear from her life. I forgot to mention that she was crying her eyes out most of the time at her house and in the car. We went back to her place....
it was around 1:30am... she went inside to get something her mom put together for me. I waited about 5 minutes and started crying... i didn't wait for her to come back out i went up to the door and as i walked up she opened the door and saw me crying, we hugged and she told me to come in, we sat on the couch and she fell asleep on me. I woke her up and told her to go to bed because she was working in the morning and I had to drive home ( we live about 35mins from each other) We kissed to end the night.
The next day she sent me an offline msg on MSN saying Hi. I didn't get her msg until later that night and I msged her back saying HI sunday. I didn't get a reply so i txt msged her saying HI sunday night in the AM..well i guess monday in the am. She hasn't responded. I don't know what to do from here.. I want to profess my love and tell her that I will make drastic changes... but i fear shes going to say how many times have we gone through and fought about it. I don't want to lose her as a lover. Should I try calling her? What should I do? I know she is upset right now about this, she is 10x more emotional than I am. Is this a fight im going to lose? please I need advice... thank you so much for reading..