I have a dilemna and I wanted to know if everyone else feels this way during their lives.
A little background... I am 29 years old and I have been dating my girlfriend for the past 7 years. We get along great, and I couldn't ask for a better partner. In fact she is exactly what I've always wanted so I want to spend the rest of my life with her and I am saving up for the ring and wedding. The only appreshensions I have are with myself, being that I want to make sure I'm capable of being a good husband and that any doubts I have are just normal feelings that everyone has.
Before I met my girlfriend I only had a few serious relationships and they seemed to take up my time, meaning I never really did the single and dating around type of thing. Some of those relationships ended up with pretty bad heartache, to the point where even when I was single after a breakup I wouldn't date at all. I've always been good looking and had a lot of things going for me, so I've always had plenty of offers, but I usually chose to be somewhat subdued. However, it was nice to be by myself a lot and out of a relationship, but it always seemed I was either in a full fledged relationship or completely alone (bypassing the whole inbetween stuff of dating around, having fun with friends, and doing the whole sleeping around thing).
I seem to have a "wandering eye", or this draw that makes me wonder if I didn't get enough experience in dating during my life. I am always checking out other girls (which I think is what any guy does), but I also wondering what it would be like to try to pursue that person. It's not that I think the grass is greener either, as I am happy with my girlfriend (most of these girls don't compare to my girlfriend, even in looks). And I don't think it is a issue about me wanting to know if I could get that girl, because I'm usually on the receiving end of the flirting by these girls.
Instead I think it is more of a curiousity of what these girls are like, what it would be like to date them, etc. Or maybe it's just the whole "newly dating" type activities or getting to know each other thing that seems to pull me in, as I've always enjoyed courting someone. Take old flings or the few girls I hooked up with a few times but never really started to date for example, when I think of them I don't have any feelings of long lost love, but I always wonder what it would be like to revisit that situation.
Then there is the whole thing that has nothing to do with other people. I always wonder what it would be like just to be single again. Being my age, and making the good money I make, seems like it would be an experience that I never have had before. I have a lot of friends that I would be able to hang around with and have fun, but it usually isn't something I do now that I am with my girlfriend because they are guy friends who are mostly single and the whole "hanging out" thing single goes do is normally searching for hookups.
I know I wouldn't ever act on that feeling, as I've had plenty of invitations while we've been dating and I wouldn't dare violate our relationship like that. It's just that it always seems to be there in the back of my mind, making me question if it'll always be thinking that way.
Does everyone else always think about this stuff, married or unmarried? Do you always think about what you might have missed out on or maybe if you'd be more equiped to be a better husband/wife for your mate if you had spent more time dating/experiencing things? Do you always go around wondering what it would be like to be with other people, even though the person you are with is more than you ever wanted?