Why life is bullshit

[NearlyThere]

It means nothing. We are overgrown bacteria. That is all we are. It just so happens we exist. That's it. We're able to ask these questions because we've evolved to a point where we're intelligent enough to ask these questions. It's all ****ing bullshit. I want to ****ing kill someone. I fantasize regularly about hacking down everyone I come across. I fantasize about starting a group, a terrorist group, highly trained individuals and killing everyone. Invincible, without a need to ever rest. A bag full of ammo. Grenades. Rifles on my back.

I need to get this off my chest.

I am a misanthropist, and when I think about it, I love it. I feel wonderful when I think that humans, one day, won't exist. All ****ing gone. Humans, will one day, be extinct. What a thought. I hate the lies people tell. I am unattractive. My family says I'm not. But when someone who is clearly better looking than me comes on the TV, my aunt for example always makes remarks about how ugly they are... yet she calls me handsome. I stopped her from doing that anymore, though. I knew it was bullshit, and that's why I told her to stop saying it. I know what I see in the mirror, and I know it's unattractive. Big deal. I can't do anything about it. I can't change it.

I'm not upset. I'm not crying. I haven't cried for nearly 2 years. Before that, I can't remember. I haven't been in public since November 2008, when I quit college because it dawned on me just how little I give a shit about life. Nothing has changed. I have put on weight, and have become quite an evil person. I really couldn't care less about my mother, or any member of my family. If they all dropped dead, it wouldn't matter to me. I spent 1 1/2 years in my bedroom, only coming out at night to get something to eat. I didn't see my mother for 1 1/2 years, even though we live in the same house. I can't make you believe that, but I promise it's true. There is so much wrong, I couldn't begin to explain. I can't explain. Only I know what's going on in my head.

I am living in misery. I have never had a social life, but I don't care. I have never had sex. I used to care about that, but not anymore. I have never kissed. I think about that, but it's not something I get worked up about. I have never cuddled a girl. I want to feel closeness sometimes, but I despise myself more than you can imagine.

Music with a beat has less worth than music without. I have realised how important REAL music is to the picture of life. I would like to kill someone to Penderecki. The man is a genius.

There is a weightlighting bar in the corner of my room. Tied to it is some industrial-strength rope. Luckily I have a loft entrance in my room. I will slide the bar into the entrance, so it's locked in there. The rop will then hang down, in a 'T' shape. I don't even have to leave my room to kill myself.

I cannot think of anything else at this moment in time. I'll post more, if I think of anything.

[Petit Papillon]

Life is bullshit so you could write such crap < Look I just have found a new meaning in your life

[NearlyThere]

Dating. Bullshit. All that effort, and you might not even get anywhere. And I'm not talking about sex.

[steviej]

You feel like you have nothing left to lose? So before you end it all, try something new. Seriously, have a go at life before you end it.

[NearlyThere]

You feel like you have nothing left to lose? So before you end it all, try something new. Seriously, have a go at life before you end it.

That 'something new' was college. I was there for 2 months. Bullshit. Quit.

[NearlyThere]

There is nothing after death. Everything we achieve in life, cannot be brought with us when we die... so what's the point in any of it? If memories aren't eternal, they're worthless. Family is worthless, because we'll never see them again after we die/they die. Friends are worthless, for the same reason family is worthless. Death is final. There is nothing else. Even if there is judgement, I seriously doubt I'll be condemned to hell for not being part of society.

[Lovable]

Why come here to write all you did?

If life it bullshit, then there's nothing anybody here can tell you different.

What do you want from the people here? What do you want us to tell you?

[NearlyThere]

Why come here to write all you did?

If life it bullshit, then there's nothing anybody here can tell you different.

What do you want from the people here? What do you want us to tell you?

You are right. I cannot argue with you. I just wanted to get it off my chest. I suppose there's a little part of me that wants to see if anyone can say something that really strikes a chord with me. I want to see what people have to say.

The only time I feel happiness is when I think about the FACT humans will one day witness their own destruction. They will literally witness their own extinction. This entire solar system won't exist, one day. How can anyone give a damn about anything? There is no meaning to life. We exist purely out of chance.

[DoesntMatter]

He's got a point

[qwertz]

People like you really piss me off, you hate life but you dont do anything about it, you make your own life the way it is. If you dont like it then change it.

[sweetkissesforu]

i think he is weird life is what you make of it

[DoesntMatter]

I'm pretty sure this guy is a troll

[sweetkissesforu]

I'm pretty sure this guy is a troll

Glad you work for the troll patrol

[eonbar]

your a very disturbed individual. id rather you didn't kill yourself, but if your going to, do that over killing someone else whos loving life.

....plus Penderecki's music is shit. do it to Spice Girl - wannabe

[DoesntMatter]

I'm a troll myself. It takes one to know one.

I'm sorry you gave a serious response to a troll kisses