Originally Posted by
happycow
I don't have a low esteem issue, but I have health issue that I cannot explode now, or to experience extremen emotional roller coaster of sadness, madness or anxiety or depression. I want to wait till I feel stronger in myself that I can blow on him to stop this altogether. Right now, I need peacefulness. I remember it was not wise to just explode or experience extreme emotions when I was separating from my ex. I just became worse physically. I am just buying myself more time. Thats it.
But I wonder for what reasons he is keeping me if he can't get anything physcial? For what reasons he is still happy to chat with me? To boost his ego, to woo me into something (which I won't be so stupid now), or for what? To make himself believe that someone is still waiting for him? wanting him? thinking of him? caring about him? The point is, if he does not have time for it, then why continue?