Okay, well, progress-wise, i guess im partly away from my nice guy syndrome for right now, and i'm trying to form myself into an assertive 'Alpha Male'(a blend of a jerk/nice guy, a guy who knows his value while respecting his partners'). I'm transforming myself into someone without insecurities(moving on from these slowly...) and actually has standards set, to NOT be a doormat and know when to say no, as well as make my own decisions and follow through with them. I have all the physical traits and activities of one for sure, but i dont feel CONFIDENT!
Whenever i try to feel good about something i just get brought back to bad memories of me getting hurt(i've never had closure from any relationship i've been in...) or i start feeling like i'm just not good enough for anybody out of pure jealousy and i start to feel bad towards myself, and i also become indecisive even when i know what i should say/do =/ How can i start to like the person i see in the mirror to the point where others would see the same thing?? If i just had confidence, i would attract more friends/girls for sure, well at least i would hope....=/