Okay... So.. We were having a movie night with my housemates. We all got together in the biggest room and layer blankets and heaps of pillows and shit down. I ended up lying next to my one of my guy friends. He was rubbing my back (cause it feels damn good and relaxes me so much). He'd occasionally rub my ass and my upper thigh from the back, but it really didn't bother me that much. He did end up going in my pants to massage my ass. And at one point put my hand on his dick. I had some whisky, wine and vodka before, so I was a bit tipsy, flirtatious and horny... So I did touch him down there for like a few seconds before I was like "it's kinda wrong, can't do that shit".
Anyway we all went to sleep. I got up in the middle of the night, somehow. My guy friend was awake and was like, rubbing my body. I was kinda shocked i guess- i had no idea what to do. He kissed me, groped me, sucked me, fingered me and nearly raped me. FML. he tried anal first, and the pain kinda jolted my body into moving so he got scared and stopped for a while, then tried doing it from the front. At this point the shock had subsided and I had to stop him somehow. So I pretended I got up. And he stop-stopped from then...
Uhm. So we're like best buddies. So I don't wanna lose that friendship. I have a boyfriend, and I'm not sure what to do cause I feel like a whore (cause I didn't stop him soon enough and I kinda did touch him as well....) I'm scared cause idk what to do. I can't tell my housemates, I can't tell my bf, I can't tell my family.. So please help!
What do I do..?