Hello all! I've posted on this forum before about how concerned I am about my looks. Well, two weeks ago my worst fears were confirmed, and now I'm having a hard time moving past it.
I'd been seeing this guy for about five months. A month ago he went out of the country on business. When he got back, I barely heard from him. Over about a week we had 4 interactions. 1) Him calling me drunk to cry about his ex-gf getting engaged. 2) A dinner date where I was planning to break it off with him, only to have him show up happy... like, ECSTATIC... telling me he finally felt over his ex, he was so excited to see me, etc. 3) A phone call where I was pissy and annoyed for not hearing from him for nearly a week, and him saying he'd try harder 4) Him leaving a voice mail that said:
"It's not working for me. I like you, but you're not physically attractive. Anyway, have a good day."
The breaking up wasn't too big of a deal, but the "you're ugly" part really cut me deep. I worry constantly about how I look. For him to call me physically unattractive on his way out the door, after seeming VERY into me physically, is kind of... devastating.
Now, I'm too terrified to even think of smiling at guys. I can't bring myself to even look a guy in the face, because of how ashamed I feel. I wanna get back on the dating horse, but I have no idea how to get past having my worst fears confirmed. Thoughts? Suggestions?