hi, lets start with some information.
I'm a 22year old male and i've been in a relation with my girlfriend for 1year 6months +-
she pretty much lives with me and everything has been great.
two of my friends (i live together with one of them) and I went to a bar some time ago,
we had a great time as always and there were these two girls, one of them started flirting with me.
It happens all the time, no problem my girlfriend and i both know we like to flirt so we do, we openly talk about that.
But they wanted to go to a club and asked if we wanted to join them, well of course we did.
the problem:
after drinking some beers over there and dancing, my ex-girlfriend walked in.
I had something with here end 2008 start of 2009
We got into a conversation it was actually a funny kind of awkward situation.
I always had the feeling that i was the last person she wanted to see, but it’s not like that at all.
and for some reason we kissed, and the seconds following looking at each other were., awkward so we grabbed our beer and continued the conversation where we left, but not much later we kissed again.
when the club closed we went outside looking for the people we were with and said we had to talk some things out and walked around the corner to have some privacy.
kissing in the rain like the first time, I told her that when we broke up i said to people that it wasn't a problem, that I’d just live my live and in 5years or so we would walk into each other and everything would go back to how it was.
and she kind of agreed to that and she knows that i have a girlfriend, and said this isn't the right time for us.
then we were interrupted by her friends and it was like, till we meet again, and i left.
my girlfriend and i promised each other that if one of us wouldn't see a future in our relation anymore he/she would tell the other.
and right now i feel like a complete a hole, not because i kissed my ex but because she is on my mind.
so i really want to see her again to figure out if i still have feelings for her or if it was just a moment thing.
and what is the “this isn't the right time for us”? because if i do have feelings for her i can't have myself running back to her a year from now i need to find out what i really want
i just don't know how.