hi everyone,
am now suffering from depression as things didnt goes well in my life. i always wanted someone by my side that could listen to all my problems and love me the way i am. People around me always tells me that i will met the love of my life eventually. It is hard to believe it when now i am 24 and never been on a date and never in a courtship too.
I've been in "love" for a few times and it always ended up in heart break.The guys im falling in love with always turn out to be in love with somebody else. There is this guy, a best friend of mine, we are sort of inseparable as we have the same class, we go out dine together, study together, watch movie together. I always thought there couldnt be a way he could be seeing any other girls since he didnt tell me and there is no sign of him texting or flirting with other girls. Then one way, suddenly his facebook status changed to being in a relationship with another girl that he never meet in real life before. I was devastated but pretend to be cool with it and asked him happily how they ended up together. It is of course heart-wrenching to hear, as a girl pop out of nowhere could win his heart but not me.
After this, i pretty sure that no guys would ever want me.
Now im having a huge crush on this guy, which we are now in different country. He is a nice guy and quite handsome too. There many girls that went head over heels over him. This just make me feel like there is no certain way i could get his interest.
I am posting this up as i have no one to talk to. Thanks for patiently finished reading until here.