i have a female friend who's a couple of years older than me (6 exactly).
she lives together with her boyfriend.
the last few months we became better and better friends. she was there for me when i needed her, when i felt down, ....
short description: she has kissed me in the neck serverall times and she frequently lays her head on my shoulders, is playing with her hands in my hair,we cuddle from sometimes, she has even kissed me on the lips (1 time, rare occasion) ...
now she has left the country since more than a week and i won't see her till she gets back which is 2 more weeks (i normally saw her 2-3 times a week in our bar) and i'm really sad about it, there isn't a day passing by i'm not thinking about her.
i don't really know what's going on
but i think i'm in love???
if so i don't want to scare her or something, if i tell her it'll never be the same again + her boyfriend is a friend of mine too so that gives some extra trouble
even if i tell her and mention that she can't tell anyone, she'll still tell her boyfriend (that how women are) and then all of our friends will start to threat me diffrently
i'm a bit confused actually