So my girlfriend and I had been going out for about 4 years, through high school and college, when she suddenly started having doubts about us. She was worried that she hadn't had the opportunity to date other people since we met at such a young age, and she wanted to date other guys. She really is an amazing person, and I know she is in love with me. But I also knew that this was fatal to our relationship, and that these doubts would never go away unless she did her own thing, so I called the relationship off (though it was really her choice).
Anyway, it has been about a month since we broke up, she has been in Europe with her family, and I have been doing well enough by myself. I really don't have a confidence problem, and I know that eventually I can get with other great girls. Just recently though, she got back from Europe, and I met with her mom and dad (who I'm on good terms with) to tie up some loose ends, and as I was leaving she came out with me. She apologized for the way she had handled everything, and then told me that every morning she woke up in Europe she felt terrible and didn't want to get out of bed because she felt so bad. And then she told me that she realized she didn't want to date other guys any more. At this point I was thinking she definitely was trying to get back together with me, so I asked her what it is that she wanted, and she told me that she thinks she wants to be single right now. Then, when all was said and done, she forced a hug on me.
So right now I'm a bit confused. We essentially broke up because she wanted to date other guys, and now she decided that she doesn't want to date other guys. But yet she also didn't try to get back together with me, which I thought was surprising given what she was saying, and given her body language during our conversation. Part of me thinks she wants to get back together, but she feels too guilty about what she did to be the one to ask, and another part of me thinks she is still just really confused. What is going on inside of her head right now? And where should I go from here?
I am not bitter about the way things turned out, and I know I would be fine in the long run if we didn't get back together. That being said, she is an amazing person, and I do love her a lot. The only reason I'm thinking about getting back together is because I think these doubts will have gone away since she had time to herself to figure out what she wants. Let me know what you think.