I don't know what to do. I feel as if you're replacing me, rejecting me, pushing me away, using me..... You haven't contacted me in two days, and I keep telling myself not to get my hopes up that you'll talk to me today. All I can do is keep being strong, keep doing things for myself, and forget about pursuing you. Because honestly... You make excuses for why you don't talk to me or want me around. I know you lie to yourself so that your lies to others seem honest and you won't feel as guilty. You're a ****ing liar. Sometimes, I hope you -won't- contact me, just so I won't have to feel happy again about you actually talking to me, and then feel depressed about the silent days after.