Thanks for the response..
Ugh, what a horrible day. I went to the doctors and they said it was chlamydia.. I just cannot believe it, i feel so ashamed and guilty. Sick to my stomach in fact. I got the pill treatment and go back in 3 week to check its all clear. I wanted to keep my partner in the open about all of this, i truly didnt think it was from me, i did use protection with the guy, i felt his penis and he felt me without any protection but then sex was completely protected with a condom.
I told my partner and he flipped the lid. Saying this is what happens when i 'skank it up'.. I didnt think i was skanking it up. I regret it with my all, but he seriously hurt me, i was so upset seeing someone else was more of an attempt to stop all the pain i felt.. It was a stupid idea on my behalf, i wish i could take it back.
He just ignored me from then on.. wouldnt answer my calls or text. When i finally drove home from work i saw everybody at his house drinking.. It just hurt. He said i f*cked everything up and its all my fault.. I dont know why he doesnt see this is a result of how he was treating me before too.
He finally called me and asked me to go see him tonight.. I just dont know what to think anymore.
I feel heartbroken, if it were up to me, we would just tough this out, put it behind us and work together on healing as a couple. He said he doesnt want to leave me, but this stuff makes him act badly towards me and he doesnt know how to stop acting up now.
Any advice would be great. Thanks x