One of the things that I loved with my ex when I was with her is that she lives a block away from the grocery I go to which is a mile away, for a two mile total round trip. She actually lives two doors down from the first duplex I ever lived in as a late teenager which means even though I haven't lived there for years, I'll still look at that place as I drive by it. Now everything has changed between her and I and I have been doing decent on getting over her, although I still have my bad days. Since I have good days and yesterday was one, I figured "So what. I don't need to take the long way around to go where I need to go. Even if her boyfriend's truck is there it will not surprise me at this point". So I had to go to a friend's house who is past the store and her house and all in the same direction, and yes her boyfriend's truck was parked outside and I really didn't think about it too much.
On the way back I figured, ok no big deal now, I can drive by there and not care, sure! Though I was driving down the street and I noticed he had moved his truck in the driveway and had all the doors open. He was outside cleaning his truck and I didn't really get a good look at him but just seeing him there like he has moved in or something really set me back and made me sad all over again.
So we to go to the grocery later because we didn't make the earlier trip and I told myself, I'd just go to another store that is a four mile round trip. I was kind of excited to a degree, thinking this I had no possibility of running into her at the store, but a potential to run into someone new. Anyway long story short (too late!) we were at the grocery for a while and I really just kind of got irritated at the situation. Why the hell do I have to go way out of my way to avoid a chick that doesn't want me anyway? Why is it that I have to see her move on but can't allow myself to do the same?
Anyway just wanted to gripe about it. There was actually an attractive and friendly girl at the checkout who I flirted with about making Sushi so it wasn't a total loss.