Well this is my first time posting... never thought I'd be doing something like this, but here goes.
I met this girl back about 7 months ago. We started off real slow, and I didn't want a relationship at the time because I knew I was moving away in 4 months. Well as we hung out, I realized I started falling for her, etc. etc. I'll skip the boring stuff.
We ended up falling in love, and took the relationship long distance when I moved. This wasn't my first relationship, but it was my first long distance one. This girl loved me. I have no doubt of that. We often talked about our future together, and it was the first girl I could actually see a real future with. But I guess the long distance made me insecure about our relationship. I started picking little fights about stupid things. Things like her not texting me enough, or her not being affectionate enough when we saw each other. I don't remember those things always being an issue. Maybe she adjusted to the long distance better than I did, or maybe I really was just extremely insecure. She still texted me good morning every day, spoke to me on skype every night, and we saw each other every 2 weeks. But for some reason, it all of a sudden wasn't enough for me.
I started picking fights, constantly about the most immature things and constantly needed reassurance of her love. After a month of fighting, I was finally fed up. I told her we needed a break. She sadly agreed. Unfortunately, in the spur of the moment, I decided to write her a email of all the things I've been angry about. She called me afterwards, crying and saying she wasn't ever going to be the girl I want her to be and that it was over.
We spoke via email the following day, after I realized over a drunken night out, how stupid I was about picking those immature fights. She emailed me seeking closure, and I replied with how sorry I was and how I wanted a second chance. She replied later that she needed time to heal, she was hurt, she needed space, etc etc. She said she wanted the best for me, and she wasn't it. I called her, and all she did was cry and kept repeating I'm so sorry.
So here's the predicament. It's been 3 days since we last spoke, which was that phone call mentioned above. My birthday is coming up in 2 days. Everyone is telling me she will most likely text me on my birthday. My options are to either reply with "Thanks, wish you were here to celebrate with me." Or not to reply at all and ignore her for a little and maybe email her something non-affectionate sometime next week.
She's a mature girl and she doesn't like games, but let's face it- everyone plays games, whether they want to or not. Any help would really be appreciated. Thanks in advance!