So my ex broke up with me around the beginning of June. There is no word or expression in the universe to describe the love I have for this girl. I still love her, but I am sorta passed the physical pain of being heart broken. I just always miss her and wonder if she is thinking about me. I still keep in loose contact with her. (Stuff has happened where we there is a still obvious connection and chemistry, but I think she is just unsure of what she really wants)
Since that break up, I've tried to be more confident in my self and pay attention to how people react when I talk to them (eye contact and body language). I read a few things here and there and wanted to try stuff out. Well I tried being confident, and keeping eye contact and just be a bit playful/cocky attitude towards her and she responded well. It made me feel good and made me forget about ex.
I talk to this new girl all the time, either via text or in person. I also work with this girl.(One of the reasons I'm unsure) I met up with her downtown and had some drinks (well I was already wasted) and it was fun. My question is, should I keep talking to this girl? I don't want to lead her on because I am not really sure if I am attracted to her, or if I talk to her to escape from thinking about my ex. At times when I wanted to text my ex, I'd text her instead. I don't want to use her, but at the same time it's "survival of the fittest". I always put other peoples needs before mine. I rarely say no to anything anyone asks me.
I ultimately make the decision of what I must do for my self, but I would like to know others opinions. I come to this forum everyday but really have nothing to ask that isn't stupid or pointless. Would it be wrong to flirt with this girl even though I still deeply care about my ex? Maybe it can lead to sex (I'm pretty sure she wants my D) but maybe it won't because I am still unsure of what to do?
Thanks!
p.s: I apologize if my structuring of thoughts is all over the place. I often think of a billion things to say, and then forget exactly how I want to say it by the time I get to the appropriate section.