Nope I think about her day and night still. In fact I woke up this morning at like 4am thinking of her. I've just accepted the fact that we'll be nothing more than friends. And when she comes around ( and I know she will), I'll be so stunned and shocked and honestly, heartbroken, because I have let her go, just as she asked me to do.
I know I will because I once thought I found the one and only and could never ever experience those feelings ever again. I mean honestly, how often does time stop the first time you see someone? And because I've been married for the past 10 years (even though it is an open marriage), I knew I'd never love that way again and had no confidence in myself and figured why even bother looking; I'm married and no one would want me anyway. And now, after thinking I'd never experience those wonderful feelings ever again, I found them. You have no idea how that changed me. I feel like a completely different person now - I have loads of confidence (I've noticed more and more women at work making eye contact with me and noticing me), I have a renewed faith that it will happen over and over, AND most importantly, I know how to recognize these feelings early on. I know it's not gonna be easy or anytime soon, but I know it'll happen.
I totally understand. I believe everything happens ( or doesn't happen) for a reason. I you were meant to be with this girl, it would happen, and it still could. Soon? I never said you find someone else soon. Shoot, took me 18 years to even realize such strong feelings for someone could be felt again. I don't want to wait another 18 years to find these feelings again, but I will if I have to.
I know you don't want to look for anyone else right now, and you don't have to. When my girl told me she had no feelings for me and I need to let go and find someone else, I felt the exact same heartbreaking, heart wrenching, soul ripping, agonizing pain I did when my high school sweetheart left me; so much so that I just wanted to never ever see her or talk to her or even hear her name (girl at work), but unfortunately, I still had to see her every day and talk to her everyday cause we still work together (and only about 4 feet apart for almost the entire day), and I sure ad hell didn't want to find anyone else, or even be with my own wife.
But I also learned that all that pain and agony and suffering fades and I'd be able to look once again once the divorce is finalized. Even though me and my co-worker seem to have drifted apart, we are still very close and can tell each other anything. And she is ok knowing how much I love her and still being friends (so she says. I think my feelings for her scare her as much as they scare me).
Have you told the girl about your feelings for her? My wife is probably way wrong, but she says if you tell someone that you love them and they don't run away, then they have some feelings for you. I don't buy it - I am horrible at reading between the lines so I take spoken (or typed) words at face value. My girl says she doesn't have any feelings for me, so I have to believe that till she tells me otherwise. Hope this helps.