Ive been in a relationship with my partner for 3 years, and i think we are very strong we have had issues with honesty in the past but i believe we have worked through it. My problem is i feel like ive lost myself in this relationship tho ive very happy most of our activities revolve around him i do everything for him drive him to work and back as hes still a student i pay for everything this hasn't really been a problem i do feel he is grateful for all i do. He was away recently for a month doing a course and i found it very emotionally difficult i lost my whole routine and didnt feel needed and realised how alone i am outside my relationship i really dont have many friends and the others i do i have when i see them i dont feel i can talk about my emotions with them. When i bring up my emotions with my partner always leads to a fight. While he was away i couldnt really eat and had trouble sleeping i just felt extremely depressed and it was an awful experience and when he returned to tell me how much fun he had on his trip i didnt have the heart to tell him on my struggles. I really do think it wasnt him as a person i missed, i do love him with all my heart and trust him we have made plans for our future and everything. I dont feel jealous or anything while he is away and i now know that his trips are coming to become more often with his line of work. I just can't be happy while he is away i just have a very heavy heart i dont wanna be social i dont wanna work or even stay home i just have this feeling in my tummy of pain i was crying everynight in bed is it that im to depended on my partner for my own happiness ? any tips ? sorry if this whole story is confusing i was just typing as i was thinking
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