I have a situation here people. I'm 18, and am currently dating this girl (17) who I've had serious feelings for for about 6 years. In the beginning I was kind of a coward and just talked to her, never made it anything serious. I had gone through many issues with her, but finally I kissed her and made it official about 5 months ago.
The relationship is very strong, and we are beginning to discovery our sexual abilities. I'm a virgin, mostly because I have chased this girl and really only this girl for so long. She had the same feelings for me, it's just we didn't really know how to handle them at such a young age when we met and it was hard to get out of the "friend zone". Anyway, the last few weeks have been very exciting. Last week she let me eat her out (for a first timer I didn't do to bad, never froze or got nervous because I really do trust and love this girl), and today she asked me to finger her, which I did, very well. She came, which felt amazing on my hand, but it was at that moment I felt a very weird emotion. It was a mix of jealousy, happiness, pleasure, confusion, and it all hit me at once.
Heres our problem, and why I'm posting here. I'm going to college in 2 weeks, she's going to our community college, but I'm going about 5 hours away. I know that this seperation is really going to make me go nuts. She also will not give me a blowjob because she is "scared" and doesn't want to have sex until marriage. This makes me confused and I'm getting extremely mixed signals. I wouldn't mind if I had another school year with her to figure it out, but I don't. And I really do want to have sex with this girl, and she wants to with me, but she has a mental block. I have no clue what I should do. And than when I get to college, I will be presented with many sex oppurtunities, and I don't know how I should handle them. 4 years is a long time. What should I say/do/ask?