Help!!!

[whitmore]

Where to begin?

I guess this all started in 2006 when I split from my ex-wife. She messed around with me seeing the kids and I ended up on meds for depression. It took until Feb 2007 to sort and I lifted.

I met someone new in 2009 (turns out I think she's my soulmate)but my ex decided to mess with contact again in early 2010. It got sorted then messed with again in October and by Jan 2011 I was back at the docs for tablets.

Because my partner was having troubles of her own with her daughter I didn't mention I was on tabs but she knew I was down.

From January to April I tried as best I could to maintain our social life - my stupid head decided not to take tablets on days we were out. I had a couple of episodes where I got aggressive and argumentitive but never put two and two together.

At the end of April we'd gone out one Friday. I'd had my tablet on the Thursday as normal but hadn't eaten anything. We had a good night and quite a few to drink. I don't remember leaving the pub.

Without going into lots of details during the course of the night my partner has disturbed me from sleep and I've gone for her and her daughter who was home at the time. I was arrested, charged and punished.

I'd never been in trouble before and this was completely out of character. My partner got her head around it and stands by me but her daughter can't forgive. I'm now unable to go to her house.

We've gone from being a couple who were almost living together to one that is lucky if we get to grab an hour or two together. I miss her like crazy...can't sleep, can't function.

The only time I'm remotely happy is when we're together. I've lost all other enjoyment.

I've been told CBT's are the way forward but they seem to rely on being able to find some inner strength.

I don't know where to turn...but being apart from my partner is tearing me up inside.

[Cerby]

Therapy would be a good start, you clearly have unresolved issues that are affecting your life.