This is difficult not talking she thinks you dont care, talking she feels your pushing her, You cant let her run hot then cold for you, you need to remember your life and you cant go forward with or without her until she makes a decision.
We all have commitment issues and i know this may seem harsh but i would say i want you and want to be with you, ive done as you ask and given you time but i cant live with this confusion i need to know if you want me or not.Be prepared for the not, but which is better for you to be confused like this or to get an answer no matter which it maybe.I also have this decision to make but the amount of time its taking to know what we both want is leading to a stalemate situation.
Good luck i hope you get your girl and dreams realised x
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