The more anxious you become the worse you will get, you have so much stress with work, new enviorment dont you think your expecting to much from yourself sounds like you just need to get back to your normal lifestyle with all this stress it will be a ulcer that will become the biggest problem for you.Chill a little dont worry about it and hey in a 3 way most of us would have performance issues.If you get the chance take a walk from the convention,learn to breathe again *hug* you will be fine.
A mistake is always forgivable, rarely excusable and always unacceptable.
Robert Fripp