Being on anti depressants is hard then coming off them is hard(hell)but you need to break from them for a while they are all highly addictive so my opinion is to go to a herbalist if you can afford it and get a relative natural substitute to take the edge off for you they arent always so strong but it may help, tell him the other drugs you take and he will be able to make a good substitute.It is severely stressed that other drugs are considered important to their possible reaction to the herbs.Research herbal medication inform yourself they do work and have less side effects and if you can cope brilliant if not then you need to see your doctor money is important but your health is there even if money isnt.
Good luck my thoughts are with you
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