I know it's long, the blue is the "important" stuff i guess, but reading/skimming would be good
I've been with my girlfriend since February, I love this girl and put her before me for everything, the feeling I get everytime I see her just inflates me (if that makes sense?).
Yesterday we were suppose to hang out at night and she would sleep over. But we had an argument and she said she didnt want to sleep over but would still hang out for a bit. We keep texting and I say that we've fought before and she has still begged me to stay at her house and I have, so why not the opposite? She says she just doesnt want to and says she thinks we need time apart to see what we have. I was utterly shocked, she said she thinks her feelings changed and might not be happy.
Again I am just in pure shock. She has been stressing a lot at work and Tuesday we had a date night (went and saw a movie then over to her house for a bit) and she was kind of snappy but I dealt. Wednesday during the day she was all attitude so I nicely suggested that she have a chill night, just relax at home, read a book and listen to music. She agreed it was a good idea.
Last weekend we went to a BlueJays game, then one of her co-workers was having a BBQ/ house warming and my GF said she really wanted me to come. Sunday we had a lazy day, movies in bed all day cuddling at my house. It was amazing and she was being very cute and affectionate (kissing my cheek and neck, cuddling closer, etc.). She wanted me to sleep at her house Sunday night and I said I was too tired, she got uptight and thought I was upset about something, I assured her I wasnt.
Monday night I suggested she stay at my house Friday night and Saturday we get up and go to a farmers market (something she said a long time ago she wanted to do). She said she was going out with one of her girlfriends for a bit but could come by after. I said yea that works. Then she said they are going to a movie at 9:30, and I said to not worry about it then, she wouldnt get to my house until close to 1am. She suggested she just comes over to my house in the morning and we go to the market, I said nicely that i new she wouldnt be up until 10, and not to my house until noon so the market wouldnt work. She got upset/ bummed.
Like I said Tuesday we went and say a movie and it was great (she was tired though). Wednesday was her chill night, and at like 7pm I did ask if she wanted to come over and stay the night and she got mad/snappy saying we agreed it was her stay at home relax night, I said I know i just wanted to see her is all. She saw that's all it was and quickly was cute and said we could hang tomorrow and she would stay over.
Then yesterday happens and she says originally says we spend too much time together, then said she thinks her feelings changed and she doesnt see her spending the rest of her life with me (i was a complete wreck since she had been bugging me about moving out with her and would talk about our long term future here and there). We have spent every weekend together for the past two months (my brother's wedding, my cottage two weekends, etc) but we have always been pure happy and smiles. It was until her boss went on holidays at the middle of last week and she got piled with extra work that she started getting snappy with me and her family, she also hasnt slept well. And I know it's all from stress.
She said she wanted the weekend alone and at one point I said that I had been thinking since the market idea didnt work we do another movie sunday, she said maybe. I said I didnt want to rush her, that it was an idea i had before she wanted space and it was up to her.
We make plans, but she is always the one to keep wanting more. Ex- we have plans to just hang out for like 3 hours, then she wants me to stay over and carpool to work (which means we would hang out the following night when I drive her home), then that night she'll want to go for ice cream and she she wants to cuddle so we spend the night at my house, etc. I love spending time with her, but if she thinks we are together too often then I wish she would have talked to me before we got to this point, we could have dialed it back and just stuck to an original plan and not let it spawn from a 3 hour hang out to 3 days.
She still wants to text/ BBM throughout this time. With how happy we've been I know it's stress at her job, but it's clearly hurting us and her job isnt going away, so it seems like I am.
What do I do, the way she has been talking today is sort of cold and really seems like this is it. I am a complete wreck. My work is flexible so I didnt go in today.
On the weekends when she doesnt work we are great and she has no attitude what so ever, but when we talk during the week or hang out after work, she tries my patients. I can't let her slip away, up until this week it seemed like we were both going to make it last. I can't stop crying, all I want is to see her and hold her and hope she realizes it's stress from work. I am so sad.