I was with this girl and things were going well. We hadn't been together too long but were already talking about moving in together and even buying a ring. This was at around 6 months. The only problem was that my ex girlfriend was a friend of mine, and I was dumb and naive and refused to give up a friend. I thought that she shouldn't ask. This obviously caused a strain on our relationship and ended up kicking off my depression. Got depressed, felt smothered, and broke up with her. 3 days later, I realized what a huge mistake this was. We got back together and I promised to try and get rid of the ex. It wasn't that easy. I was doing it for the wrong reasons. I still felt it was wrong of her to ask. Since I did it for the wrong reasons, she didn't really leave the picture and the fights contintued.
We have been apart for a couple months now with very little contact. I KNOW that this girl is the one for me and it just seemed so silly that I couldn't drop the ex for her. So I did it. It wasn't easy, but I had to. If I ever wanted to move on then she had to go. I did it for the right reasons, I'm actually happy that I did this. Told the girl and she isn't too impressed. I don't think she realizes how difficult it was to say goodbye to someone who was a part of your life for 5 years. She didn't say I have no chance, but based on how she is acting, that is how it is. I'm not sure if maybe that is just something to make me feel the heat to remind me of the mistake I made or if she really wants to be gone.
I understand her point of not trusting me. I broke her heart before. I said goodbye to this girl and she boomeranged back. I know this time it is for real, but I don't know how to prove it to her. I had the first panic attack of my life last night at the thought of her being gone. That is completely unlike me.
Today I made this video to try and show her. youtube.com/watch?v=B2CFehxElUU A friend of mine said that if that doesn't do it then she doesn't deserve me. So really I'm looking for 2 things here. How can I get her back and prove that this time is really for the long hall. And 2, can you check out the video? It could use all of the support it can get.
Thank you all for reading and I look forward to your replies!