I have been apart from my ex for a good few months. I still miss him everyday, i still dont know what to do with myself and still fighting with myself everyday not to contact him. I just want to hear his voice, feel his touch..
I feel so lonely.. I got in an argument with my sister and she just made me feel so crappy.. Made a comment on how its not her fault my life is shitty and hers is so great because she has a great guy..etc. Ugh.
I go through these phases every now and then. They suck. lol
I even hate any males attention right now. I feel like i have lost all my charisma and charm i once had before when i was single. I get stuck for words when i am talking to anyone, i just feel weird and not myself. I guess that relationship really did suck everything outta me.
I just feel crappy about it.. Like after everything i put into that relationship.. He got away free of any guilt, isnt upset.. It makes me mad because he doesnt even deserve that. I wish karma would come into play sometime soon.
Im not even sure what im looking for by writing this. I just know people on here always cheer me up
I am just hoping it doesnt take me years to get over him.. That really scares me.