We never had relations, we was only friends for short time, but from first moment I was her, I understood that she's my life, It was hard to be just friend to her.. but time goes, I can't eat, I can't sleep, I can't work, I can't think, I can't focus on something, I allways : each day, each minute, each second think about her, all my world and life revolves around her, all day and all night all my thoughts are only about her, with each second I like her more and more, she became the sense of my life. I want to hug her, to whisper " I love you " and never, never leave her.
We met and talked some minutes, we talked about a lot of things, but didn't talk about most important things, I told how much she means for me.. then we just sat and looked in each other's sad eyes, then we hugged, kissed, then she left, it didn't was how I expected, but it was not bad meeting. Then she didn't answered my messages, my calls, even when we saw each other, I only saw sad on her face and it was like she won't talk to me, we just behaved as if not familiar. It is hard, and it hurts...
I allways want to show her how much she means for me and how much I love her, but each time something goes wrong.. how to show her that? what to do? I even would give her a star if that was possible, I never showed that, these was just words and I think thats the problem... how to show her that she's everything for me, and how to show her how much I love her?
I'd do everything,everything for her, but I just don't know where and how to start...
P.S : english is not my first language, and PLEASE don't say that there are another 3 bln girls in the world, and to forget her.. I know that, but I don't need each of another 3 bln girls... I need only her, and I can't forget her, I tried but I can't.