My grilfriend of two years broke up with me anout 6 weeks ago (Im 33 shes 22) Long story short when i met her id just come out of an 11 yr relationship 8 month earlier and wasnt quite ready to settle but loved her.I made a lot of mistakes i cant turn back and she had problems of her own. Basically our relationship was a mess and breaking up is probably for the best.
Wed broke up for a few months about a year ago and both slept with others, i could handle that but she couldnt. I then after we get back together i find out that one guy she slept with was as the result of a game and they do it in his car in her alleyway, on xmas day when im telling her i miss her dearly and love her more than id ever imagine i could and wish i was there with her on that day. This broke my heart as she made me wait a month for sex. I never thought she could be so easy. But i tried to accept it as it was me who broke up with her the first time and she was broken hearted. I couldnt really accept it though and became depressed, insecure and jealous. I got a bit angry too. She didnt say anything to try to console me about it really like it was a mistake and just a drunken fumble. She did say that it was the only time they done it in the few weeks thay were dating, but i dont know if i believe that.
A couple months later my phone breaks and i borrow her old one while mine gets repaired. I find that shed been texting another guy after her and her slutty new best friend have been kissing each each other to tease him. Texts about threesomes. I tell her the relationships over, she promises me nothing happened with his guy, and from the texts id didnt seem like anything had. I give hear another chance but say were not ready to move in together yet which i was planning on doing about then. Anyway we continue to have problems, we have a big row and thats it broken up. I say i want to sort it out so we see each other a few times, i even take to to get a puppy thinking itll be for us really, the next day she adds the guy on facebook who she sent the messages to and i lose it. She said shed done it to see how id react! I know its for the best that were not together but i do love her dearly and miss her loads. Cant stop crying. I feel like i should be settled down by now and dispite all the problems i was going to move in with her as a last chance of fixing things. I wanted her to be the mother to my children
I have a huge hunch shes already with another guy (not the guy she was messaging before) and because of what happened on xmas day and the texts to that guy i have the most horrible mental images going through my head of her and this guy having 3somes with her mate, doing alsorts of things she wouldnt to with me towards the end. I text her the other day just saying 'hi. Just wondering how you are? Hope all is good ' and she hasnt replied. I dont know if any of this is true, the 3some thing probably isnt but i really feel like shes seeing this guy and has been for a good few weeks now. I cant even get aroused at the moment im so depressed. It feels so unfair. I gave her everything when we got back together and shes destroyed me. When i met her i was the happiest and most confident id been. Now im an empty shell of a man. I feel a little better today but i still cant shake these images of her with this guy. I keep getting memories of me and her together and remembering exactly how i felt at that moment like it was just yesterday, just trivial things like shopping, going for walks, drives etc. Its driving me crazy. I really wanted us to work and shes just thrown all my efforts back in my face.
I know when im not feeling sorry for myself i can get girls pretty easy but the thought of being with anyone else at the moment just depresses me. I dont know how she can be with anyone else so soon. And i dont even know if she is!!! Its driving me mad!