This is a complicated situation, and I know I should move on, but I don’t know…
I met her and we became best friends quickly. I asked her out, and we went on a date. After the date, she told me she just got out of a relationship and wants to take things slow. So I slowed down a little bit, and we remained best friends.
A few months down the road, she gets back with her ex. I should’ve moved on then, but I really liked her, and she wanted to still be friends. So we did. We both flirted with each other (something she would deny at the time but admit to later). Months go by and I tell her how I feel. This is when I realize I truly love her. She says she feels the same way, and that if only she had the courage to break up with her boyfriend, we would be perfect together. She didn’t.
We remained friends for another year, and she remained in her rocky relationship. She started liking this one guy in her class, and asked me to help her get him. Guess this should’ve been hint one. I helped for a while, but when it became obvious that this bothered me, she stopped. We hooked up a few times intermittently, she stayed at my place a weekend, etc.
Few months later, she goes on a long trip, away from both me and her boyfriend. She was in another country, so her cell phone didn’t work. We decided to send letters (cheesy, I know). I send her letters, and try to remain platonic in them. Hers, though, were not. “I can’t stop thinking about you, no one else”, “I now realize who is the most important in my life”, calling me sweetheart, dear, etc. I think things are going great. One thing, though. Her boyfriend goes to pick her up at the airport and stays a few days. She falls for him again.
A month later, she finally ends it with her ex. She tells me “I have never been attracted to you as I am now”. We go out. She gets sad from time to time about her breakup, but more or less things are great. We date for a few months, nothing serious, but nothing to dismiss either.
Then she meets this guy. No big deal, she hangs with him a few times, I didn’t think twice about it. Then out of the blue she tells me that she would take a break because she’s not ready. I reluctantly agree. A few days go by without a text. I’m dying missing her, so I text her. In those few days, she completely lost all feelings for me, and has started liking this guy, and then in the same breath says “You would make the best boyfriend and husband…I just wish we had a chance..”.
This is where I’m at now. I know I should move on, but the way she acted when we were together, she wasn’t faking that. I know her very well, and I know when she’s real or not. Those smiles, those feelings, they were real.
What do I do?