Ok, I know this won't help but here we go...
The meds I was on were not prescribed to me by my usual dr who thinks I shouldn't have been given them in the first place. THEY caused the dark thoughts. The pot was to bring me back to myself so to speak and it worked. Within an hour of my first cone I was much better. I don't need a lecture on the dangers of mixing drugs. I know what is ok these days and what is not and I now know to trust my instinct when it comes to prescribed drugs because that is the second time I have been prescribed something that didn't seem to sit right with me and the second time I have had an adverse reaction. I know I don't have the most stable mental state, I know pot isn't the answer for that and I'm now seeing both a standard psychologist and a small team of drug and alcohol counsellors. Thank you for your concern.
Anyone worried about the safety of my child need not be. He is perfectly safe.
'People are never perfect but love can be. People waste time looking for the perfect lover rather than creating the perfect love' - Princess Leigh-Cheri from Still Life With Woodpecker.