I cry every single day, and I've never felt like this before like a huge part of me is just dead on the inside. Even when I'm happy and with friends, I know deep down I just wanna think about it and cry.
I had a crush on a guy, and we became friends. We would keep in touch, call each other etc. I was so happy that I was actually friends with the guy I liked, I felt like it was so much more then a crush because we were actually friends. I was pretty sure he liked me as well. I tried to let him know I liked him, but I wasn't direct because I didn't want to just come out and say it and it be awkward. We were texting back and forth, so I told him that "I liked this guy :p" ( I was referring to him but I guess he didn't get that) he just stopped texting. Now he just cut me out of his life, doesn't call me doesn't text, nothing. And I've tried to reinitiated contact, and he'll respond, but after that he won't reinitiate contact himself. He was so cold to me, and I feel like I just lost the "love" of my life and my friend at the same time. Just writing this makes me cry, because I thought we had something special. Its safe to say were not friends any more, maybe just acuientances that say hi if we see each other. And its killing me to think that he wouldn't even care enough to keep me in his life as a friend.
He hasn't initiated contact in over 3 months.
What can I do to accept that its over and move on? I've tried doing charity work, I've tried trying to contact him to be friends again, I've tried getting active/running, and eating healthy
I never did tell him that I ment him, I did call him and tell him that I liked him (but I think he took it as just me liking him as a person) Im the shy-est girl in the world, and I couldn't just come right out and say it I thought maybe in the future I could bring in up, but hes never wanted to han out with me since.... and now that its been 3 months I fell like were not friends and that I don't have the right to do that anymore