God this situation is pathetic.
Perfect for you? Love? You DON'T KNOW THIS WOMAN.
Nobody else here has spelt it out clearly enough for you obviously, so I will take the liberty of doing so.
#1. You don't know what the word Love means. Love is not your annoying fantasies about sleeping with/being with your teacher. Love is not developing feelings for someone that only knows your name because she reads it off of a roster and grades your papers.
Love is tried and true and is something that lasts a lifetime. Your obsession (which is all this is) will eventually go away once you either A) Get back on those meds and learn to develop some sort of a social life, or B) Actually meet someone worth your time.
#2. Anyone emotionally and mentally weak enough to actually allow someone to get into their head enough to drive them "psychotic and suicidal" has more issues than just their relationship.
My Ex wife attacked me with a knife, sabotaged my vehicle, had people steal from me, stole several thousands of dollars, faked pregnancy (times 3), self-aborted, took my son and ran off with another man (whom she was pregnant with) to a different state, busted my computer(s), throw out all of my personal letters and photos from my entire life and then rode off into the sunset in the cheap rental van of another man.
All in the span of about 3 months.
But, guess who was at work the next day after she left?
So don't give me this crock of shit about how you were "in love" with her and that's why you "had to" stay and it destroyed you.
Here - I will save you the $120 an hour therapy charges and tell you the truth - The reason you were so "broken" is because you are weak, and until you stand up and say "You know what, I really AM a dumbass and need to develop some godamn social skills!" it will always be the same.
You will fall in "love" with people who don't even know you, fantasize about events that will never happen, and post anonymously on an internet site about what you should do because you are too chicken shit to actually make moves of your own.
Do some growing up, find yourself and your REAL personality, then come back here in a few years when you have discovered the mature adult that is hiding behind all of this bullshit and have a real relationship.
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